I believe we've all either faced, are still going through or are about to go through this phase of life, when you start to realize even those who promised you "forever", leaves. Promised you that they'd be always be there, leaves. Promised you that despite whatever happens and they will never leave, leaves as well. Haiyaaaaa, like what everyone says "Promises are meant to be broken."
It just seem like a norm. It's like, you start knowing someone... Maybe through facebook, through friends or somehow just some weird telepathy brought you guys together. Then start texting, hanging out, watching movies, going on dates.... and *BAM* someone new enters, and you're erased. FOR. GOOD.
Don't you hate it too? And maybe till weeks or months, until they need a favour or sort... WOAH, suddenly your power of invisibility disappears and you're "remembered" once again.
"Oh I promise to call you back later!" You wait... Hours... Days... Weeks passed... It NEVER happens. I mean WHUUUAAAT?! What exactly do you mean to some people right? You feel like a loner, you feel like once these bunch of heartless people leave, your life is screwed.
People leaves you out. For some reason, your clique just goes out without calling you along and sadly, that's not the end of the story. The next meet up, they all start engaging in conversations that you can never ever be a part of, you're lacked behind... No matter how hard you try to say something, you're ignored perpetually. And your existence slowly fades away; Upset. Rejected. Angry. Disappointed.
You know you've tried, you've once tried staying in someone's life so bad that it makes you feel like some pathetic despo... But it just seem like, your efforts always ends up going to waste. It's always in vain. Because regardless of how much you've tried, you just end up feeling like the white shitty crayon between all the beautiful colours... Nobody wants, nobody cares, nobody even bother to give their least attention to. Have you? Have you felt it? I did. And it officially SUCKS! To the core and beyond~
Apparently I believe that no one likes to incessantly put in the effort to stay in someone's life. No one likes to be an option. No one likes to be remembered as someone's entertainment, "Hey hi haven't spoken for quite awhile." "Yea, what made you remember me all of a sudden." "Nothing, bored." GOD, It's like WHAT THE FFFF.
okay i am basically done saying what i have to say. takecare then x
